desperate for a change.

I'm actually quite sad for the fact that I'm in a new class, again. But oh wellz, life goes on for the out-of-sync student. So anyway, needa change to be a better daughter, better lover, better friend and a better person, nigga.

You know, during the holiday I keep on telling myself, 'I need some alone time' and hahahaha I didn't gain anything from it. Thinking about life. Thinking about improving myself. But nah. (it's a cycle)

And again, I was telling myself I need some alone time and suddenly there's another voice in my head that was like, your some alone time is useless so yeah, I came to a conclusion that all I need is a beautiful cosy cafe that have plugs so I can sit down with my lappy all day long and just be alone now and then. (No, I don't think it’s lonely at all). It's good rather than being at home and feeling all stuffy.

& I wanna meet new people, like really total strangers. We become friends, they become the people I wanna look forward to meet everyday.

You know how people wait so long for the right person to called them soul mate? I shall wait for the right person to called my best friend! (: And when that day comes, I want to hold on to them (they should too) and I hope our friendship will last till we, d i e. When we argue, just know that I still love them. We will hate the same person as well (why so much hate? That's life) we will be like I don't like her/him too blah blah blah and exchange eye contacts when we saw that person hahahaha someone who truly understand how and why I feel that way. They will be the people I depend on to share my problems and happiness.

And yes, I miss having a best friend. Not I meet once in a while, but someone that I meet everyday.

sincere. selfless.

For now, I shall meet as many people as possible, the past, present and the future till the right one come along!

I'm so passionate for a change.

So that way, people will stay and I have no reason to push them away.

I guess the problem doesn't lie with anybody, the problem lies with me.