Can I don't fake my smiles and laughter?

It's tiring.

I don't feel belong anymore.. I want to get out from there.

No, I don't want to get out, I was from there. I was happy being there.

I used to love being there.

Why must things change..

It's so sad to look at the state everything are right now.

The past, it was so much beautiful than now.

The people, they are so much sincere than now.

The place, it was so much lively than now.

But deep down, I know things will remain the way it is.

How I wish, it never turned out this way.

And funny, I feel awkward now being there, the reason why I never go anymore.

Keep on asking, 'Should I leave?' but why should I?

That was where I feel welcome. Family-kind-of-warmth?

When I first joined in, that was the best part of everything.

The start of everything. Making a lot of friends, love, feel belonged.

Better than being at home with my family I should say.
I was happy every. single. day.

The thought of leaving everything just saddened me..

Now, I just can't wait for things to end quickly.