My small boy.

I don’t know what I’m feeling but it is definitely an awful one.

I feel scared, sad, annoyed.

There’s just something different.

Is it me? Or is it him? Or us? Or am I thinking too much again?

Well I guess people do change.

We both change. I hope we change for the better of course.

To be honest about everything..
I mean he deserve to know, well that was what I felt.

Because we keep on saying about our future and I believe he should know.

Now that I think of it, it’s my fault.

He keeps on saying he’s still a small boy, and then it hits me.
I shouldn't have told him.

Then again, he has to accept me for who I am, my past, the people in my life and just, me.

Am I going the right way? Pft what am I saying.

It feels like I am going the right way but at the same time, I’m going the wrong way.

When he was away, I actually feel happy, because I know when we are apart, I will never walk away.

Our love keeps growing, we missed each other every single day, (that, I believe).

I missed those days.. Those days where we appreciate each other more than usual.

Now that he’s back, (I’m scared)
It's just different like to when he was away.
Or am I thinking too much again? Hahah

And I don’t know for what reason, (I'm scared of losing him)

And if, if he’s not there for me to hold onto..

Someone please tell me, please?

(: (: (: (:  I’m so sad.. (: (: (: (: